Sadia Muddassir Week 16 - When These Blogs Become Memories
One day, I'll revisit these blogs—come back and read them, not under a deadline or for a grade, but simply to remember. I'll be older, maybe in college, or even further along, scrolling through the words I once wrote. Maybe I'll laugh at how certain I sounded, or maybe not. Maybe I'll think about my junior year, about AP English Language, about who I was when I typed these blogs before 10:00 pm on the day these blogs were due.
I don't expect to remember every sentence or every prompt but I do think I will remember this feeling. The same feeling I feel right now, writing this blog. Of learning how to say what I want to say, of relating to other's blogs and thinking, Wait, I know what they are talking about! I'll remember how writing sometimes felt easy and other times felt like dragging sentences out of nowhere. My mind full of ideas one instance, but the other blank.
Some blogs I'll barely remember writing. Others will bring back entire memory I had forgotten. Not just the topic or things that were going around in my head at the moment, but the day itself reflected through my writing, the exhaustion, and the times when I got stuck and stared at the screen until forever, the random thoughts that finally made it onto the blog, and even the small sense of accomplishment after hitting "publish."
I won't pretend these blogs were perfect. Not at all. Though they still reflect something. A whole year of me thinking and writing my thoughts. I have written journals before but that was when I was in elementary. Since covid I had given up on that, and writing felt distant for a while. And maybe these can help me get back in track, maybe not in the same way, but enough to remind me that I still have things worth writing down.
Works Cited
Tom, Yop &. “21 Types of Journaling (How to Find the Perfect Technique).” Yop & Tom, www.yopandtom.com/blogs/news/21-types-of-journaling-how-to-find-the-perfect-technique.
Hey Sadia, for much of the year I did look at doing blogs as work and rather as something I will look back on as a memory. As it comes to an end I look back and realize that doing blogs was one of the funnest assignments to do in class. Not only did it bring peers together to discuss on sort of a public forum, but it also forced us to find things that interested us to talk about. It served as a place for me to vent my thoughts and how I felt about certain topics or certain events that have gone on throughout my life. Something I hope to take from this is to journal more, as I think writing my feelings will help me better express myself and overall keep me more sane. Much like you, I don’t remember writing a lot of my blogs, but as I look back on them I realize how the Wednesday nights I’ve spent crafting blogs have accumulated into something worth remembering. One day maybe I too will look back on the blogs and reminisce on the feelings I’ve left lingering on this tiny screen. Thank you for sharing your blog!
ReplyDeleteHi Sadiya! I really appreciated your blog, since it evaluates the nostalgic value of these APENG blogs very well. I believe that these blogs can demonstrate our growth as writers as well as allow us to reflect on our states of mind during various times of year. Even the comments are insightful, as we may go back and reread and rediscover a differing perspective on an opinion that proves to be helpful in the way only a well thought out statement by a fellow AP English Language student could be. It was wonderful to read your blogs this year, and I loved having English with you!
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